truly, Cecilia's

I've completely forgotten you. After I had said those to you, I felt relaxed and I forgotten you after I had said it. Well, I didn't want you to know how I felt about you but, I don't love you anymore. To be saying the truth, I was kinda happy when you said you had little feelings for me after we broke up but, after seeing my blog, you don't like me anymore. I did learn something from this love, it was loving the personality and heart, not the looks. I'm sorry for all the hurtful things I've said about you here. I know its kinda offensive. We're friends now. I can be the happy, hyper, funny Cecilia Chin Poh Kim aka Kimmie again. I don't have to make my friends and my sis and lil bro to worry me ever again. I'll find another boyfriend when I get older. TEEHEE! :)

Today, my sisters friend, my tuition teachers and me were celebrating my tuition teachers birthday, Ms Tan! We went to Wangsa Maju to eat in this restaurant called Happy Four Seasons Restaurant. The food is kinda nice and the place has different seasons. But the renovation didn't suit though. Anyway, on the while when we are enjoying our time, we heard this babi malay old person saying " dont talk bout this thing in privacy " maybe something like that. While we're laughing among ourselves, his bloody fucking son went to tell his father that we're laughing about him. What the fuck. He's damn in vain or perasan lo. ( Malaysian language! ) Than that bloody shit old man went and scold us, whats the problem with him? He even called us uncivilized people. Than he's an uncivilized person himself too cause he scolds people in a public area for no reason. He's like talking to himself. Btw, we did fight back. His son went and showed us the middle finger. WHAT TH...

My old friend who I never talked to or hated last time, talked to me back. I'm so happy! Finally he realized we don't have to hate each other in our lives. Actually, I didn't really hate him for these few years. It feels good to have my old friend back. Its such a miracle today. And I'm quite happy cause my ex fell down, got a bruise on his knee and he only had a point for cross country today. I'm mean, I know! XD Ciao~

Im quite heartbroken now. Been crying for two days for him and I can't get over him so fast yet cause he backstabbed me. I heard it all from my friend and I'm too angry and hurt to cry. He's the one who ended it and guess what? He's angry about it. He's weird. He doesnt want me to live without him. He pointed out the middle finger. I'll say fuck you too. :) Well, I just wanted him to smile everyday. Thats my only wish. His best friend said that if I still love him, tell him. Why would I wanna tell him? I'm sure he's supposed to know that I still love him. He said a lot of bad things about me but I can't or hard to describe it here. I started to hate this guy called C. He's such a jerk too. When I just asked him about my ex for twice or thrice, he said he feel like screwing me up. What the fuck. The day when my ex haven't broke up with me, I texted my ex whether am I bothering him, C told my ex to say yes. What the hell. My ex...

I'm here to vent out my anger again. I wanted to say: If I knew this would happen, I would have to end it with you first! You had made my heart a scar! Do you know I cried for you?! Cause I still bloody love you, thats why! Among all relationships, you have been the longest in my life. I thought I can be happy with you, but in the end, look at me, I'm the looser who cried for you! Why are u and the 'bubblegum' are the same? Why? Is it being with me very boring that u leave me? 'Bubblegum' gave me a choice to leave him. But you, you needed space. Hadn't I gave you a lot? Its okay. Nevermind. Let's leave it that way. I still love you. I admit. But you, I don't know. To me now, you're not my best friend anymore. You're not the person I can hold on to. My friends are the one who were there for me! Not you! I hate you. Just a little. Maybe my hate for you will grow. We're not meant to be. I still love you. Hope you may find another girl who...

After 6 months and 3 days of our relationship, we had ended on 23/2/11. He said that he has no more feelings towards me. Its not fair! I loved him a lot more now, and he said he wanted to end it with me cause he wanted space. Well, I cried for a few minutes today and I'm still heartbroke and have no appetite to eat. :( I hit, stomped, punch his teddy bear that he gave me. I vented out my anger on his teddy bear and became a crazy fella. Now, I'm venting out my anger in my blog and facebook by sharing emo things. And I'm kinda confuse cuz his best friend said that he still loves me. Gawddddd, I JUST CANT FUCKING BELIEVE IT! I just cant. And the thing is, its over between us. :)

Bonjour!~ Since these days my blog is kinda boring by talking bout my own stories, I'm gonna show you guys about candle making! Finally, something fun and nice right? I captured these pictures when I'm in my art class. My teacher didn't bother. She took pictures too! She took almost everybody's pictures and she said that if we wanted the pictures, add her in Facebook. Lol! Its very fun to do candle making. The saturday class did yellow in colour, sunday's class ( which is my class ) did orange in colour. Well, we can choose our own colours but this week is for practice and the next week, we can choose our own colours. These are paraffins. White and orange I balanced the string in the cup so that its balance and pretty Since we had 2 groups and a group consists 9 people. My group was the 1st who went to pour in our paraffins into that pot....

Let me tell you guys something bout boys. Sometimes, when they like a pretty girl, they'll flirt no matter what it takes to make u become his girlfriend ( unless they're efforts are useless when the girl didn't like them ). Boys, sometimes they're being more immature than girls since they like to tease girls. And girls are more matured than them. Boys, they're tall when they get up to 13 years old. ps: they get kinda horny by touching girls parts They cant think what girls think but they know what girls like. We girls, too, cant think what they boys think we also knew what they like...right? XD They always liked pretty girls but they never liked plain girls with plain looks. But I dont know why they look for girls with good personality now. ( Isn't that good? ) They're two types of boys..actually. One of them are the shy ones and the bold ones. The shy ones are those kind of boys who didn't wanna confess to the girl they like but they keep their feelings...

J u s t B e W h o Y o u A r e , Y o u D o n t H a v e T o B e S o m e o n e E l s e .

Hey guys, I'm here to post about reality. I know some people cant accept true facts and reality as some people were into dream world so much. Some people wanted to screw reality cause its harsh and we have to accept it. Well, we have to cause, its life. Like me, seriously, I'm not really a very realistic person. I'm mostly those kind of daydreamers but i dont really daydream that much. I have to accept reality too. But if we keep on daydreaming, we, people might not get positive reaction to reality and in the end we escape it. Thats not really good. Mostly, do u guys like to daydream about your dream and your personality is kinda stubborn? I'm that person. Are you? Oh well, I used to say screw reality cause my mum keeps nagging at me. But now I know, and all the time, she nags and scolds me for my own good. :) An ending with a smile

My valentines went out great but in the end, I got a misunderstanding with my friend and I dont wanna talk bout it cause....I wanna forget it :) Well, my boyfriend gave me cookies and a teddy bear which he simply picked. Oh well, its okay cause the teddy bear is kinda cute and I got addicted to it somehow. The pink card is the one my boyfriend gave me and to the right, I ordered it myself To the left, my friend gave it to me

I'm kinda like her now cause her song aint like other japanese songs.....well, Itano Tomomi's new song, Dear J, aint that bad too. Anyway, Kana Nishino's new song is Distance. Its damn awesome. I seriously recommend this song cause it rocks :) Her picture below is her Distance single album picture

I'm in a rebellious state now cause I cant go out with friends eventough I'm 16 now. My youth sucks. When I'm 17, I only can go out with friends cause my mum only let me go out in that age. Sucks right? I know! I live my life at home doing nothing. Well, I'm waiting for next year so that I can go out. Even if I wanna be a naughty kid like going out with friends secretly but I know I cant cause I'll get beaten up in the end. :(((( I really wanna break free. When can I break free?

I'm sorry for what I have done to you my beloved friend. I knew everything. I'm really sorry about saying that you changed. I'm really sorry. I shouldn't have bitched about people. I'm changing this attitude now. I hope you forgive me. You and the flower are my most beloved childhood friends I ever had Lastly, I'm sorry. :)

Today I had two tragic events. First, my boyfriend asked me out to the prom this year. Suprising right? ( My first time! XD ) Second, a stupid shit motor cyclist who makes sounds with his mouth later said hi to me by the bus window. Which is damn scary. Its so scary that I shuddered with goosebumps. Eww I wouldn't wanna know why that motor cyclist wanna make sounds like that, moreover, saying hi to me by the bus window, its disgusting shit and I don't even know him. Terry said that guy was a pervert. XD By the way, I liked the first tragic event. Its so sweet. Nights people! Baii!

Time flies so fast and school starts tomorrow :( Why are the holidays so short? I dont know how many times I type that sentence but..nahhh...just dont care bout it. I watched The Green Hornet today and......went to Gold Class and watched it! OMGGGGGG :D My first time sitting on the comfortable seat and the soft blanket! Its super awesome and The Green Hornet is awesome!!!!!! The movie was damn funny. Worth it and Jay Chou really speak in englishhhhhhh. OMG And Seth Roger....he's really funny. I'm so lazy to upload the pictures that I've taken in the gold class cinema. :D BAIIII!

My Chinese New Year was celebrated in my mum's hometown, Pahang. Well, I treated it as my own hometown cause ever since I was a little girl, I lived there. This years Chinese New Year is kinda fun though....watching tv, naps, eat. XD This is how I lived thru my cny. Boring right? But I love it!!!!! On the day before the chinese new year starts, I woke at 6 to work.....so damn tiring!!!! Work starts at 6 am to 5 pm. And after 5 pm, my family went straight to Pahang! Well, let the pictures do the talking! :) ...