truly, Cecilia's

I'm so fucked up confused about my feelings. To just forget him, I found a hottie in my school who is a basketball national player to be my target. But I have no intentions in getting him cause he's not interested in girls at our age, YET. I dont even know how to get guys already cause I lost the skill? :/ I'm not interested in him anymore By the way, girls are not supposed to go for guys but boys are supposed to chase girls ;) Anyway, back to the topic? I dont know why, when moving on, I still have these little feelings for him My god, can't I just get it over already? I know its really normal but its been 5 months already (coming near to 6 months) just to forget him. I took 6 months to love him and now, I need to take 6 months to forget him?! This is the first guy whom I love so much. I've never felt like this before. But I'm much happier now and I dont really love him soooo much like before. Cause I'm moving on :) I'm happy but I thought over and over...

I did some chemistry experiments today and is kinda complicated But the chemistry which I believe is CuSO4 in solid form is disgusting below :/ My bestie, Lee Juan, took this. Credits to her :3 www.leejuandeblog.blogspot.com The experiments my group made :D It looks so awesome :3

I dont know what the solution is but I took these pretty pics of the solution. It has a gradical colour of purple and blue :3 FYI, I accidentally broke a test tube and using a portable Bunsen Burner is dangerous! :O

I'm still staying in Sri Garden and I'm really happy <3 Cause my father didnt want me to leave Sri Garden too I never regret telling a person that I'm leaving Sri Garden He hugged me and actually, I didn't wanna let go but in the end, when he let go, I let go too. ;( I wanna hug him longer and I knew that he still treat me as a friend. :3 He pinched my cheeks and touched my head, my heart was so so so nervous at Wednesday cause I can't bring out the guts to say it When I told him that I'm leaving, I shoved out my hand to give him a handshake but instead, he gave me a hug. I'm very very very touched I hugged him back too. He knew it when I didnt tell him cause my friend who I mistook her by liking him, told him. And when I said I wanna leave, he told me not to say anything cause he knew Oh well, I'm not leaving my friends and my 2nd home. :)))

I'm saying this cause I might be leaving Sri Garden. :( I've been studying in this school for 12 years and its my second home. I have true friends here that no one could replace them and I'm kinda lazy to make new friends in my new school. Well, if my dad pays the school fees, I'm not leaving but how long must I wait for my father to give it? I'm now getting ready and I'll discuss with my dad about this. But I've never seen him for 2 days already. Kinda worried :/ I really don't wanna leave and I can't see him anymore. My god! I wanna cry but I can't. :((( If I tell him, I might cry Moreover, he's the best thing that's ever happened to me :'))) For now, I just like him ;)

I've been very stressed out lately cause of my mum She said that if I can't pass SPM next year, I can't go to college or universities. She called me to go to work instead. I don't want that to happen cause I dont like to work I know I have to study hard already but she's giving me a lot of pressure. Sometimes, I would really wanna shut her up but I know she's doing this for my own good but she keeps repeating it everytime. I can't take it anymore. Gahhh, she always make me wanna runaway or cry. Hope God will help me pass this challenge in my life.

Their latest album and repackage! Finally, they had a repackage album! Don't you think that the weather now is kinda hot and sticky? This is the perfect song for us! I had another song to recommend too! This song is damn awesome and I dont know why Rebecca Black is in there but the most awesome-mest thing is, Kenny G is there! How awesome could that be? Two of Glee cast are in there which is Darren Cris and Artie! Katy Perry is really like a nerdy girl and the way she talk is really different. Other than both songs above, there's a new song of LMFAO which is Champagne Showers. And I felt that all the songs I recommend are all for summer. Enjoy <3 That song is nice too

I'm not sure about the feelings I had right now but its DEFINITELY, I don't have any feelings for him anymore I started to not have feelings anymore when he says that I'm annoying. I decided not to Skype him anymore and when I see him in school, I feel like punching something. When I bumped onto him in school, I avoided him at every angle. Some people told me to be normal friends with like saying hi and bye but I think I'll consider that for a while. :DDDD By the way, I'm so happy in school now that actually, I'm not left out ;))))) But I do have a secret which cannot be publicized in here and only a few of my friends knew it. I'm not sure of it but it will not really happen. HOPE IT DOESN'T

Do you know that when we, girls, are in love, will always post all those kinda things that we wanna say out to the guys, but we dont dare? Well, as you know it, we, girls, put the things what we wanted to say to them in our blogs, Facebook or even Twitter. But if you want that message not to be seen, put it on Tumblr cause not much people use Tumblr, in a way. And do you know that a girls blog is always an indirect message to the boys? Answer is a YES Thats why, when we, girls are having boyfriends, the boyfriends will always ask the girls whether are they having a blog. DO YOU KNOW WHY? Cause they wanna see their girlfriends words in the blog which they never say to their boyfriends. :) So that they know us better ;) Ciao peeps. Gotta sleep :3 Nights, its now 11.01 pm and I have tuition tomorrow

I finally changed the template and it looks white and fresh. Doesn't look boring aint it? ;)

Remember this face? Yeah, Its Kim Hyun Joong people! He's back with his album called Break Down. He's quite stiff in dancing now but he's a lot buff and looking so muscular *melts* And the dancing in Please MV is better than in Break Down MV I've posted the Please MV and please look forward to it <3

I had fun that day for I went with my sis and her friends at CEO in Fahrenheit. CEO is really awesome I had fun and my uncle's birthday was that day too. My singing had improved a lot :DDDDDDD The ceiling The floor

Now I realized I never really blogged much :o I'll try my best to blog more okay? ;) Anyways, I've changed the songs and its Replay by SHINee in japanese version though. But its nice. *hehehehehehe* Having Mr Taxi by SNSD for a long time is boring right? *laughs*

I've been reading korean manhwa lately and one of em is Love In The Mask Another one is Forbidden Kiss Love In The Mask Forbidden Kiss Both of these korean manhwa's are awesome and I really recommend this <3 The first one will involve a lot of gang fighting The second one, not much. Be sure to enjoy em <3

I don't know why in this 2 weeks of holidays, I feel left out. I talked to my goddaughter ( we've been treating each other like godmother and goddaughter since I was 13 ) about this and she said one word in chinese which is "忍(ren)" "忍(ren)", meaning is tolerate. My goddaughter said that she's kinda being left out too and she's tolerating it. I've been tolerating and maybe I'm not used to it cause this feeling comes out for a long time? Maybe XD Hmm, I wonder how my goddaughter tolerates it though. She's my best listener and I really treat her like my daughter somehow, we have a lot in common and talk a lot. Well, me and my 3 best friends have the same thing in common and we talk a lot. *laughs* Maybe I shouldn't care bout these feelings ehh. *laughs* But if I dont care, I dont have to think so much but if I care, I'll go crazy So, I'm not gonna care bout it and let it naturally :) I just couldn't wait for this Friday caus...

I had a very happy shopping yesterday cause I finally bought a high waist short pants from Topshop and a plain tee from Forever 21. God, I love em so much but I didnt take a picture for the high waist but I took a photo for my Forever 21. Its actually those kind of shirts where you wear your singlet first and put on this tee later on. My bro bought t shirt, skinny jeans and boat shoes from Topman and it all costs 711 RM. OMG

Everything is settled already cause my friend had forgiven me and we're just normal friends now. Well, its better than nothing and she treated me like a best friend. LOLS I'm happy for that but actually, I've just treat you for what friends are for. I've always treated you as a normal friend, not best friend. :)

Hatred is really useless cause 1. Hatred makes the person uneasy and uncomfortable 2. It makes people having negative thinking 3. It causes people to think a lot and it tires the brain 4. It doesn't do good to anyone of us 5. It causes grudges and causes the emotion to be too emotional I don't know why some of my friends having someone they didn't like and causes them to be emotional. Can't they just 'forgive and forget'? Seriously. ._____________. I have to admit that I did have the feeling of hatred before but guess what, I got over it and look at me, I'm superbly okay and fine. Just dont care who hates you cause you dont deserve it :) Just live your life to the fullest with happiness :3

They had released their MV for their Replay in Japanese Version. Tae Min is hot with his new hair, Key has his blonde hair again (well, I love it cause I love him! ), Min Ho's new hairstyle made him look like a kid though, Jong Hyun is cool as ever and Onew's hairstyle is much more better! Yoona appeared in the MV. SHE'S SO DAMN PRETTY!!! Pretty right? XD Now I wanna grow my fringe to get her hairstyle. I'm bored of my fringe already. Anyways, I'm inspired by SHINee's fashion( since a very long time ago when they debuted ) I'm designing the designs which has inspired me and I love their sneakers the most. Well, Yoona's fashion in this MV is also very inspiring to girls in college too <3

I feel bored and lifeless today. So I decided to blog After having my brunch with my dad, I watched Kungfu Panda 2 with my brother for an hour and I slept for 1 hour and ten minutes. I dont know why the holidays are kinda boring somehow. I miss school. I wanna see my friends so badly somehow, and my 3 best friends are coming to my house soon. This saturday!~ I dont miss school in a way somehow cause I dont wanna see 1 of my friend. Well, its best not to care cause its useless to care about it. I'm waiting for another outing with my tuition friends. I wonder when is it. Without outings in the holiday, ITS SO BORING!