truly, Cecilia's

According to all the emo posts I've posted, that was buried in the past and i've moved on without them. Now, I have new friends, new life and new environment with my new friends :) I feel much more happier with them and for now, I have no best friends but only had good friends with me :) And I have a good news for you guys, I've moved on without him already! Its been 13 months I loved him and I know its time to move on. He also offended me on the day before I moved on. And I feel that I don't really deserve to cry and hurt for him. We have to let go of things which are not meant to be with us. :) And yes, I felt much more better now :3 My quote : We have to let go of things which are not meant to be with us

26/7/2011 I should stop crying now. Its time for me to be strong. If I keep on crying, I won't even know how to move on anymore. I'm lost. I'm out of words. I don't even know what to say anymore. When every time they walk past, they never said hi or bye. I think I'm not meant to be with them. They're much more happier without me. I'm always #foreveralone. Even though I still have other friends, I'm actually still feeling lonely cause I'm friends with S & L for a long time? Yeah, they gave me the happiness and warmth that I need. Thank you :) and bye :D

26/7/2011 I think I'm thinking too much. AGAIN. Why? Because I care about my best friends? Well, yes, I do. I can't accept the fact that they're not with me now. And I feel that I'm a person which can be taken for granted. People just take me when they want and throw me when they don't need it and I feel I got thrown away T.T All they need is them and they don't need me anymore. Yeah, I deserve this shit. Seriously, I think I'm treating them too nice. Fuck. Why is this always happening to me? Why can't this thing happen to others? FUCK!! Nobody even know how I feel man. I don't even dare to use the word 'friend' anymore. When S told me that we're still friends, I was like "really?" If you were my best friend, you would stick with me and never leave me. So what if I tell you how I feel? Nothing would change. So what if I tell you the truth? It will change nothing! Nothing at all! I always treat them so nice and guess what I get i...

Due to my emo-ness and for the sake of updating my blog, these emo post are my true feelings ;) 25/7/2011 I feel that people would be happier without me being around them. Some even don't have feelings about it. I know I might be emo and stuff but some people don't deserve my friendship towards them cause they're not worth it. I never followed 'my gang' anymore cause of so many things that happened. I now hang out with one of my close friend and she seem to be nice, like REALLY NICE. ♥ feel that I haven't found my true best friend yet cause best friends will be there for you no matter what. But this time, I don't think I found them yet. When can the true, one and only best friend come? Cause I know that in life, there's gonna be just one for me. I'm writing all my feelings down for my friend suggested this way for me, for it really works somehow. When we grow up, people say they lose friends but no, its not. We're just finding our one and ...

Sorry for not updating for so long guys! But I promise to blog okays? Cause I got a lotta things goin on. :/ I'll have mini updates. Don't worry :3

I looked back to the post I've posted in a few years back and last years, I realized I kept on posting stupid things. -.- Mostly is about the guy whom I previously loved. -.- Its like, kinda all bout love and a lil friendship. But mostly, they're my life lah! LOLS! But looking back, you'll know how much you have grown and change. :)

This year's IFF (International Food Fiesta) was kinda boring and un-fun like last year cause the IFF got a lot smaller and I don't know where the stalls are. I bought a lot of cold drinks instead of eating :/ There's nothing to eat. My booth, Kimmie's Nail Corner, didn't really earn much :( Cause I didn't put my poster outside to promote it. Well, its kinda screwed at first cause there were no place for me to go on with my business. However, what pleases me is my club shirt, (I'm from the Art and Photography club) which is in BLUE ! My first time having a club tee in blue. Its really really nice and finally, I can wear my high waist pants. A lotta people wear it. My sister spot 3 people wearing it. Wow. Topshop, you're being loved by so many people. I didn't really hang out so much cause I work. The weather there its like, WTF. SO FUCKING HOT I saw a Domo kun bag and what the hell, its sooo damn cute! Me, Kelly and Yung Wern wanted it sooo much! XDD ...

Hey guys, I didn't really blog cause there a lotta things going on in my friendship life. Grr, I really regret that I never really listened to my dearest sister and I get enough already. And I knew what I'm going to do now, is not to care about them anymore, STUDY HARD. It was really hectic that day. I wanted to take it slowly with her until she said, this one word(translated by me) "Whatever" I've forgotten who shouted first but it was the worst fight I've ever been through. I admit my mistakes and I know I'm the wrong one at first for being so sensitive these few weeks okay? Cause I just don't like people to bitch about me But seriously, there's no point in saying sorry cause i'm not the one who's at fault for the very first start. There's no point in telling you the truth either. :) You're not deserved to be my friend. By the way, I got some great encouragement from my sister and my old, childhood, kindy buddy, Sharon Wong. I cha...

I went for my mock debate today and I didn't know it would turn out to be sooo fun! It started to get fun at the second debate on the topic of International Nuclear Weapons policy. My old friend, childhood friend and ex boyfriend whom I dated when I was 10, JT made some hand gestures and some funny things that we all laughed in the hall. A lotta people left when the second topic was being held. :/ But they missed the fun part, seriously. Oh well, never think I really brought my MacBook to school just to do some research. And its my first time writing my own resolution and my seniors say its not bad :) I'm happy and glad! I made my opening speech kinda late cause I never really thought about it but it went well. I never even knew that asking delegate some questions was also fun too :3 I took some pictures with my friends and it was only 3 pictures First time taking pictures with Kriishand (the indian there), Jean, Richmond and Elvis I feel loved...

That was on my friends birthday called Yuen Tin and I went out with my besties today! We also celebrated it for Lee Juan. :DDDDD That day was when everybody are hyper! They're Mei Yin, Lee Juan and Su Yi~ We went to Jusco today to buy the things I need for my IFF cause I'm having my own nail corner! Awesome right? Well, let pictures talk shall we? ;) We are Bunnies~ p/s: We're trying on some cute hairbands :3 Just Us <3 My food Lee Juan's food! ...

This movie was really the BOMB! It was really really awesome. I watched this with my dad last last week I think. Rose Whitely huntington was soooo extremely hot and her accent is kinda deep but beautiful! Her accent didnt really match the movie though. :/ I still prefer Megan fox for she really is suited for this movie. Well, more new robots came out and Sentinel Prime is really a big big BASTARD! I love Optimus Prime cause he's so AWESOME! I love what he says in every movie, especially in this movie, he said "You may lose your faith in us, but never in yourself" to Shia Lebouf. How inspirational!

When I'm alone, I start to think about him and start crying. I was alone today for I saw a nemesis of mine was with them and since I didn't wanna bother them, I wanna sleep in class and when I looked at the ring that he gave me, I started crying If he were still here with me, he wouldn't let me be sad, lonely and crying. He would be there to tell me that everything will be alright and tell me that he loves me But, nahh, that won't happen already :( Sometimes, I was always the one kinda got left out cause I think about other people first and not myself :3 I couldn't take the loneliness anymore so I called a close friend of mine, Yung Wern. She accompanied me. How sweet :3 ♡ When I got back to class, I told Lee Juan I cried quietly and lonely. She felt so guilty :( She told me to take her away with me, but I told her I would bother her. She said No. AWWWWW! Should have took her How much I love her and Su Yi XD ♡

I wanna post about how my contact lens get dried up. :( Well, it was just yesterday that I found out that it was dried and I was sooo sad that I cried. Cause I thought of my mother who worked so hard for the money and she paid this for me. Lucky, I didn't threw it away and kept it instead. I saved it today by putting contact solution I borrowed from my friend. It slowly goes into shape and yeah baby, it saved my contact lenses! I was so happy :3 Here's a picture of it Cool ehh? XD

Tsubasa Masuwaka looks really really pretty and cute here :3 Oh my god. I'm addicted to her and her make up stuff :3 But the song is kinda noisy though. :/ Enjoy~~

Go look at the post in Tumblr cause I didn't want anymore drama and a lotta people know by seeing my blogger so I posted it on Tumblr instead. www.kimmieism.tumblr.com :)

She looks so hot here and I just found out her new song called " Best Thing I Never Had " Her mv is full of pretty wedding gowns and beautiful reception place for her wedding :3 Her crown is also very pretty :3333 Omg!~ And I fell in love with her song too :3 So meaningful Here's one of the dress, BEAUTIFUL And her tiara here , I know the picture cant see her tiara but go watch her video!

Ohaii guys!~ I know I'm not really updating my blog cause I had nothing I wanna write bout but, here's the thing I was in the art room with some of my friends and my art teacher who taught me last year came in to do his piece of art. When he's doing it, my friends start goofing him and I took pictures. Here's what we did End of story, we really had fun anyways. :B

Things kinda sorted it all out and hope this will NEVER come again. Seriously tired of all these friendship fight shits. If it ever happens again, I will just walk out of that life and ignore cause its really really stupid. Eventhough there's a friendship fight, I never hated them cause I don't want that cycle of hate to continue and it makes people really bad and suck-ish. FYI, I will just feel angry. And well, I never really think much about him already but when I look at him, I will still feel my heart beats for him cause it still means I love him. But all I wanna say is " If you love someone, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were. # MPH " from TweetsWeLove from Twitter I didn't know that I took so much time just to forget him and its been already 7 months now. WTF Thats kinda long right? XDDD Well, give me some time. ;)

杨镇南,我爱你<3

Lately, things have been so screwed just because of some little things and I'm better now. Told one of my trusted friend and (censored) cause I can't take it anymore. I feel much more better that I knew the truth all along and yeah, :) Things got worse than before but I ignored it. :) Cause it wasn't worth it. This is what we call LIFE To me, I think LIFE is all about going through challenging things you face everyday and when we couldn't take it, we just vented it on something, break down and cry. Its okay to do those sometimes cause humans like us, can't be strong forever. The things we challenge everyday was like a lesson to us and how we face it. The most important thing is how we face it. And, don't runaway from the truth. Be ready to face it accept the consequences! This is all I wanna say today ;) Wish you all good luck in life!

Time flies and July is here~ You know, seriously, I wanted this to be a better month but no, IT GETS WORSE I dont know. Well, I just know it got worse. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA Hmm, lemme me see, I can become a LOVE guru and thats a good thang but bad things seem to come over me. I really hated the feeling :/ Nothing is really coming my way though. Nothing in life really comes your way. :( I have been watching this awesome Taiwanese drama called Drunken To Love You or known as Love You( 醉后决定爱上你) The main cast are Joseph Chang, Rainie Yang, Tiffany Hsu, Alien Huang and Kingone Wang. This drama really rocks okay! Its soooo fitted for me to watch this cause my fav actress and singer, Rainie Yang is inside it and obviously, I watch this drama because of her. Its also kinda for "not moving on" people to watch this. In one of the episodes, I cried cause its so touching!